9/11

I know, I know. I just posted a few days ago about how I wasn't going to be blogging for a while.
...I lied. 
But that is because, and ONLY because, yesterday and today were both very important days.

September 10: Yesterday was World Suicide Prevention Day. I have so many opinions that I keep to myself about suicide, one being the fact that I believe it is a selfish act. The act and attempt have both hurt the people around me, and myself as well. Besides the fact that I think it is selfish, I DO understand that it is, without-a-doubt, a REAL thing that goes on in this world. I am not close to understanding what it is like to want to take my life, for I have never had those thoughts, but I have seen the hurt and pain that comes from it. I have seen the misery that follows the act; I have seen the grief, the sorrow, the regret. I guess my whole point to this is the following:

You will never be too "messed up" to a point where God can't fix you. Seriously. No matter how bad stuff gets, or how distant people are, or how twisted your thoughts may seem, God will NEVER leave you. He won't. Ever. We sing a song at church that says: "life is worth the living, just because He lives". Can I get an AMEN??!!???!!!!? In all of these things, we are MORE than conquerors. You are here for a reason, and no one in this world has the right to tell you other wise, ESPECIALLY yourself. Many people believe we are our biggest enemies, and I think that is partially true. We are our own biggest critiques, but with the power of God we can overcome anything. Please don't ever forget: your value does not ever decrease based on someone's inability to see your worth.
September 11: I stumbled upon a few pictures this morning. Here they are:

...are you in complete awe like I was? I have known the meaning of the rainbow since I was a baby who could barely run without tipping over, but I realized that not many people know the true meaning. A rainbow represents God's promise to His people. It was in the story of Noah's Ark, and He promised he would never flood the world again. It is the most beautiful representation of a promise that anyone could ever think of. Seriously, props to you God! Two rainbows were shining bright yesterday afternoon over where the two twin towers use to stand. This has to be one of the most amazing things I have ever lived to see. Today is a day to remember those who were, fourteen years ago, headed off to a normal day at work but never returned home to their families and loved ones. It's a day to remember to take a little extra time to tell those around you that you appreciate them, and care for the unconditionally. It's a day to remember to never take life for granted, and to be thankful for every individual day you have been blessed to carry on. It is a day to remember that no matter what you are going through, our God is just and righteous and faithful and will never leave us, because that is His promise. 

Sincerely,

Ashley.
xx

Dear Friends, Family, Acquaintances, Subscribers, Lost Internet-Seekers:

My life recently has been a giant blur of multiple things all factoring into one central idea: my future. School has started up, which has actually been going great. My classes are fairly easy, and for the most part, I have been fortunate enough to get decent teachers. Along with school, the thought of what I want to study has (obviously) been clouding my mind with many random thoughts. Setting goals has been a huge part of this past week or so, and I have my mind set on particularly one goal for my future. This goal is time consuming, physically draining, and ultimately very risky when it comes to pouring all of my focus towards it. I know I can accomplish it, however it surely will take lots of time, effort, and energy. It could take a few months, it could take a year, but all I know is that it is what has been on my mind and it will be what my focus is on for the next while. I believe in myself, and that is the only consent I need. Of course, nothing will go the way planned I am sure... but I do know that God has got me where He wants me at the right times, and there is no such thing as a coincidence. This is me taking advantage of those moments, the people He has placed in my life, and my passions for certain things.
Due to the demand for time that this will consume, I will be stepping away from social media for a bit. I guess this is essentially a "pointless" blog post, but I just wanted to leave an explanation post for my lack of involvement with my website. No, I do not owe anyone an explanation, but it settles better with me knowing I put it out there. I know probably eight people total will see this post, but that's because it will be eight people whom I care about and whom I hope care for me.
Until my goal is accomplished, I will talk to you all soon.

"Do not tell people about your dreams, show them."

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11.

Sincerely,

Girl With a Dream.
xx